you're so very special

... i wish i was special.
have you ever had one of those days when you just felt unimportant? what the fuck is up with that?!?

and then you realize that if you were gone, people would start wishing they had treated you differently while you were here... and that is why everyday, i do all i can to let my loved ones know how much i really love and appreciate them.

i hope that i will never leave you with a single unkind word.

nothing hurts more than not being able to say "i love you" anymore.

L is for luscious

by now you've probly already read my post about being a freakin robot... so i'd like to let you in on the better side of izelle... the real izelle actually. everything's more fun that way, wouldn't you agree?

so i put my name into one of those name acronym makers online and this is what it gave me:
Inspirational Zany Exquisite Luscious Luscious Enchanting

i must be pretty damn luscious...

luscious:
Adjective1. Sweet and pleasant to taste or smell: a luscious melon. See Synonyms at delicious. 2. Having strong sensual or sexual appeal; seductive. 3. Richly appealing to the senses or the mind: a luscious, vivid description. 4. Archaic Excessively sweet; cloying.EtymologyMiddle English lucius, alteration of licious, perhaps short for delicious, delicious ; see delicious.Other formslus'cious·ly adv.lus'cious·ness n.

so here now for your viewing pleasure and mine, a look into the very luscious life of me...















































hmm... those are a few random shots for now... hopefully enough to keep you entertained... be back for more... they'll be up shortly, i promise you. i never disappoint...

robot status

fo sheez peeps... the life and times of a receptionist

today is veterans day, so first and foremost this one goes out to them. strangely enough, when i think of that, i realize once again that i ought to be somewhere else, doin somethin else.


i regret to inform you that i have a routine now. i've come to acknowledge and accept the fact that regardless of what anyone says, at the beginning of my day i'm a receptionist and nothing more. i get up, maybe go to the gym, get ready and go to work... to be the receptionist. and i stay the receptionist until 5PM.

then, i drive about a quarter mile away only to become the starbucks groupie for another couple of hours. note that this is the highlight of my day. i see my friends and talk about anything and everything. this is the time of day that i feel the closest thing to being O.G. izelle. i can kick back with kris, reg, tre, tinay, felix, neil, marc, and whoever else is in the buildin and feelin themselves.... with my iced grande extra vanilla caramel macchiato in hand to finally put a fuckin smile on my face.

then i drive home and myspace. (notice that i now utilize "myspace" also as a verb.)

and to end the show, when done myspacing, i sleep.

sometimes, i'll eat.

i'm a nice girl with some nice dreams

so i've been thinkin... this "job" i have... it's not that satisfying. and believe me, i've always been the type to really really REALLY want a job that makes me happy- something i'm actually passionate about.

don't get me wrong, being a realtor is great if all you want is cashola, but i don't. in fact, the only thing that's left that attracts me at all to realty is the chance to maybe be rollin in some major dough. on the other hand, i don't see how realtors can ever fuckin sleep. they are constantly on the job. and it's not like you're gettin paid hourly... or even salary. you sell a house, you get paid. you don't sell a house, you're livin off ramen and vienna sausage rollin in a '92 camry on a quarter tank of gas.

and now, about my big dreams. yes, indeed, we've all got to have our dreams. as some of you might know, my ultimate dream would be to become an actress, or actor (for the sake of not being sexist). acting has always been fun for me. i know that it's something i enjoy. but it's scary... mainly because although i know for a fact that i enjoy acting, i really don't know if i'm any good at it. afterall, my acting experience is limited to two high school musicals and a few elementary school plays in which i was most often the narrator because of my incredible reading-out-loud skills. haha. another roadblock is a pretty obvious one- i'm not superskinny, tall, or white... i don't know if there's room for someone that looks like me in hollywood. what kinda role would i get other than token minority teenager? and it's not like i'm gonna become super famous overnight. it's gonna take a lot outta me, i know. maybe i'll just waste away several years of my life tryin to make it in a place where i never belonged in the first place... maybe.

... or maybe not ...