i'm a nice girl with some nice dreams
so i've been thinkin... this "job" i have... it's not that satisfying. and believe me, i've always been the type to really really REALLY want a job that makes me happy- something i'm actually passionate about.
don't get me wrong, being a realtor is great if all you want is cashola, but i don't. in fact, the only thing that's left that attracts me at all to realty is the chance to maybe be rollin in some major dough. on the other hand, i don't see how realtors can ever fuckin sleep. they are constantly on the job. and it's not like you're gettin paid hourly... or even salary. you sell a house, you get paid. you don't sell a house, you're livin off ramen and vienna sausage rollin in a '92 camry on a quarter tank of gas.
and now, about my big dreams. yes, indeed, we've all got to have our dreams. as some of you might know, my ultimate dream would be to become an actress, or actor (for the sake of not being sexist). acting has always been fun for me. i know that it's something i enjoy. but it's scary... mainly because although i know for a fact that i enjoy acting, i really don't know if i'm any good at it. afterall, my acting experience is limited to two high school musicals and a few elementary school plays in which i was most often the narrator because of my incredible reading-out-loud skills. haha. another roadblock is a pretty obvious one- i'm not superskinny, tall, or white... i don't know if there's room for someone that looks like me in hollywood. what kinda role would i get other than token minority teenager? and it's not like i'm gonna become super famous overnight. it's gonna take a lot outta me, i know. maybe i'll just waste away several years of my life tryin to make it in a place where i never belonged in the first place... maybe.
... or maybe not ...
don't get me wrong, being a realtor is great if all you want is cashola, but i don't. in fact, the only thing that's left that attracts me at all to realty is the chance to maybe be rollin in some major dough. on the other hand, i don't see how realtors can ever fuckin sleep. they are constantly on the job. and it's not like you're gettin paid hourly... or even salary. you sell a house, you get paid. you don't sell a house, you're livin off ramen and vienna sausage rollin in a '92 camry on a quarter tank of gas.
and now, about my big dreams. yes, indeed, we've all got to have our dreams. as some of you might know, my ultimate dream would be to become an actress, or actor (for the sake of not being sexist). acting has always been fun for me. i know that it's something i enjoy. but it's scary... mainly because although i know for a fact that i enjoy acting, i really don't know if i'm any good at it. afterall, my acting experience is limited to two high school musicals and a few elementary school plays in which i was most often the narrator because of my incredible reading-out-loud skills. haha. another roadblock is a pretty obvious one- i'm not superskinny, tall, or white... i don't know if there's room for someone that looks like me in hollywood. what kinda role would i get other than token minority teenager? and it's not like i'm gonna become super famous overnight. it's gonna take a lot outta me, i know. maybe i'll just waste away several years of my life tryin to make it in a place where i never belonged in the first place... maybe.
... or maybe not ...
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